Sweet Possession review

Ok so why I have been going through chemotherapy/radiation treatments and so forth I picked up one of my biggest things I love to do again and it is read. I have read well over three hundred books. I am a fast reader. I started out with Twilight books and ventured on to Erotic Romance books. But I don't just read anyone...my faves are Maya Banks, Shayla Black, Jaci Burton, Lora Leigh and Lorelei James. Maya Banks is hands down my favorite author. In her stories you can feel the emotions and you just become entrapped in them. My favorite of her series that she writes hands down is the KGI series, I highly recommend them as I was in tears reading The Darkest Hour, which is the first in the series. No Place to Run and Hidden Away will no disappoint. I feel in love with Garrett and Sarah in Hidden Away and am so looking forward to the next which is Whispers in the Dark coming Feb 2012, not sure if I can wait that long though :)



Another of Maya's series that I love is the Sweet series. I just got Sweet Possession yesterday which surprised me because it doesn't release until April 5th. But I was so excited, yep did a little dance when I got it. I was not sure how I was going to take Sweet Possession I was excited for its release, but I feel in love with Angelina and Micah from Sweet Surrender (Sweet series #4). One I think because Angelina just simply loved Micah for all that he was, she did not give up on him. However I dove into Sweet Possession and I simply flat out LOVED it! It is such a GREAT book. I love that Connor finally found someone and he is everything that I imagined him to be and more. I absolutely LOVED the girls in this book, I don’t think I have ever laughed so much. Still thinking about them leaves me in giggles. If you have not read any of the series the girls are so funny, but they are also strong women who go after what they want. This is by far my favorite of the series. Maya Banks did not disappoint at all, she exceeded by expectations. I can not wait to read Cole’s story next year and really hope she continues on with this series. There is one word to describe the book and it is AMAZING. For those who might be skeptical about reading the erotic romance I highly recommend reading these authors, yes they have "risque" parts in them, however these authors simply amaze me. I feel everything in their writing, I cry, I laugh and I get ticked and of course I get to where I do need a fan to cool me down. But the stories that they write are AMAZING! I was one of those skeptics about reading this genre, but fell in love with it with these authors. They always write incredible books and you are always looking forward to their new releases. I will write a review every time I read a new book.

2nd post this month

Wow! Two posts in one month hard to believe. But things are going pretty good. The kids and I have been doing good on our own. We actually have a routeine down. They haven't asked too much about David, but Kaylee did break down yesterday and started crying and saying she missed her daddy. I had to remind her that he will be back at the end of May. We did get sick a couple of weeks ago and had like a 24 hour thing. Not really sure what it was but the kids threw up and I just got a very upset stomach. But I was glad to see it go out of our house. Now we all have colds. We had beautiful weather last week, but then it got cold again and my cold has been hanging around for about a week. I did take the kids to get their pictures taken. Kaylee will be 5 soon and it's just too hard to believe so here are some of her, and she looks so grown up:



Here is one of Skyler:


and here is my favorite of them together:


I am going to throw a birthday party for Kaylee next Saturday on the 9th of April for the little girls in her class and her. We are doing a lalaloopsy theme. I need to get to work on the toothpicks that go in the cupcakes. I can't find anyone on ebay or etsy to make them, so I am hoping I can pull it off. I made her invitations and was told they were really cute. Have a good day!

New Year and already 3 months into it

Wow. Blogging is really not going to be a top priority I see. Well let me backtrack a little to my last post. The kids a had a great Christmas and we left Christmas Eve to go to Louisiana and see family and friends down there. While we were in David had some interviews and when we returned to Missouri; he got the call regarding a new Job. He took the job with Farmer's Insurance. February was a busy month for us. Getting David ready to leave for Louisiana and going to see the dentist just about wore me out. I did have my scan done and got great news that I am cancer free as of now. And I am hoping it stays that way. Kaylee had to have two crowns put on her teeth and they had to put her out for that. Skyler is going to have to have two crowns and two teeth filled as well. David left Feb 25th and the kids and I are still here until they finish school, then we will make the move down there. But in a nut shell that is our life in a few sentences.

Only 3 more days to go

The kids are so excited for Christmas they can't stand it. Yesterday I wrapped gifts that were from daddy and I and then a gift from each other. They have been going up to the tree looking at me and ask very nicely if they can "Open just one" up? And the answer each and every time is "No". They don't like that response, but I did tell them their patience will be worth it. I thought long and hard about what to get each kiddo and Skyler's was easy we got him two transformers and the DVD Mater's Tall Tales. Skyler has been wanting that DVD forever since they brought it out. I just know he is going to be super excited. As for Kaylee she is in utter LOVE with Justin Bieber. I have no clue how she found out about him but she adores him. Everytime he sings, she puts her hand over her heart. My Best Friend Michelle got her a Justin Bieber doll for Christmas and when she got it, she screamed like 14 year old girls do. Everyone had a good laugh. Well I started looking for other Justin Bieber stuff. I found a shirt, a watch *that I got at an amazing price at Kohls(regularly $20, on sale for $9 and I got 30% off of that)*, a dog tag necklace, a bracelet, a CD and I finally found her Justin Bieber PJ's that were another awesome price at Kohl's at just $7.00. Oh yeah and stickers to go in her stocking. I am super excited to see her open it up, she is going to be tickled pink. Kaylee got Skyler Handy Manny's workshop which he loves to build stuff so this is perfect. And Skyler got Kaylee a Jewel Sparkles Lalaloopsy. David suprised me and picked up another gift from mommy and daddy to each of the kiddos. He picked up Skyler Iron Man sets and Kaylee is getting the mini lalaloopsy's. She has been going crazy for those.


Kaylee *helped* me wrap gifts for my sister, my mom, my dad, Taylor and Zach and I think that was a mistake as when we dropped the presents off at my mom's today she started telling grandma what all the items were. She is my big mouth of the two. Skyler can keep a secret but Kaylee can't. She always says that she will not tell, but right after you tell her give her two minutes and she can't hold it in any longer. :)


Santa is bringing the rest of the gifts and from what he and I have discussed Skyler is getting Chugginton sets, Transformers, Stinky the truck and a few batman items that he wanted and of course some candy...what Christmas would not be complete without that vital piece of the puzzle. Now from what Santa told me he is bring Kaylee the Olivia platset, The Plum Pudding purple car, and lalaloopsy's and candy too.


Skyler's last day of school was yesterday. They had breakfast in his classroom complete with sausage and cinnamon rolls. Then they were to wear their sleeping clothes, bring a pillow and blanket and a stuffed animal. He brought his heart puppy. He got it for Valentine's day when he was two and still sleeps with that thing. It's one of Ty's items and thank goodness it can be washed. Then they had Happy Meals for lunch. They had a good time. On Monday they made Gingerbread houses. David went to help out and Kaylee got to tag along so she got to make them too.


Kaylee's last day was Monday and she had a Christmas party. Each kiddo was to bring a book and they play a game and then whatever book you wind up with you get to take home. Well when Kaylee opened hers she got a Toy Story book, she does not like Toy Story at all, David told me she said "I don't want this" and threw the book down. I just couldn't believe it. Lately she has been doing stuff like that and I am not pleased at all with those reactions from her. So I asked David if he corrected her, he said no. But she did apologize to everyone and to her teacher. I am not sure what her deal is lately but she and I had a talk and I told her she was lucky daddy was there with her, because I would of taken her out of her chair and in another room and spanked her bottom. (I realize for some that just talking to your kids or taking toys away, or time out or so forth works, but for mine it just doesn't and believe me I have tried everything, the only thing that works is a spanking)

I hope everyone has a very Merry Christmas and Happy New Year. I am headed to Louisiana Christmas nite and will be bringing in the New Year there.

Tired. So I had chemo yesterday and still tired from it. The last couple days the kids have been pretty challenging. We put up the tree and Christmas decorations and you would of thought that neither one had seen a Christmas decoration in their life. They were so wound up from seeing them put up. Skyler informed me that we need Christmas lights up outside, and I told him that would require me doing it and it wasn't going to happen this year. David refuses to anything guy-ish at all. He doesn't put anything together or anything manly at all. He can't fix anything or repair anything. Sometimes I feel like I married another girl. I can do all of this myself but yet he can't do any of it. But if I don't put up Christmas lights it doesn't get done.

My friend Michelle is coming in town on Friday. Just her and her daughter Emma. I am excited to see her. I haven't seen her since last summer in 2009. They are staying with us and should prove to be interesting since I am not sure where we are going to put Kaylee and Kaylee is fighting about letting Michelle and Emma sleep in her bedroom. Kaylee has a daybed and it has a trundle underneath. But she doesn't want Michelle or Emma to sleep in her room. So I know I am going to have a battle on my hands.

I also finished the book No Place to Run by Maya Banks. It's the 2nd in her KGI series and the series is simply amazing. Yep they are romance books, and get a bit racy. But the stories are just amazing. The first one is called The Darkest Hour. This one had me crying and just pulled at my heart strings. You could feel the desperation in the characters in her books. I highly recommend either one of these.

Can you say LaLaloopsy?

That is what is on top of Kaylee's Christmas List. She wants Lalaloopsy's, and she wants them all. She is getting the twin set that is at ToysRUs from Santa. They are the cutest rag dolls and have the most unique names. We saw them on the shelves at Target back in July and she went straight to them and got so excited. From what I have heard from the toy stores they are a very hot item, and if you see it on the shelf and you want it grab it because it won't be there again. And that is so true, all the shelves that I saw today are sold out. The one that she really likes is called Spot Splatter Splash and I can not find her anywhere. This is what she looks like:


These are the twins Sunny Side-Up and Berry Jars N Jam


My sister is getting her Bea Spells-a-Lot (she's my favorite):


My grandma is getting her Peanut Big Top:


And Skyler got his sister Mittens Fluff 'n Stuff:


Skyler hasn't really asked for much this year. On top of his list is Stinky the Garbage Truck which Santa is bringing:


This is the funniest truck I have ever seen. He says over 90 phrases and he burps and toots. Skyler busted up laughing when he pressed it's tummy and it tooted and said "Oh excuse me". Also on his list are Iron Man 2 figures and of course Transformers and a few Handy Manny items.

We are getting the kids Nintendo DS Lites for Christmas. This has been something Skyler has been asking for and this year Wal-Mart is having for $89 on Black Friday and we have some gifts cards to use, so we won't have to pay for it. They are also having a lot of games for $10, along with Target and ToysRUs. I am buying my nieces from her for $50, she doesn't use it and that is going to be Kaylee's and it's in extremely good condition. I have to say this year I have really watched the sale ads starting since October and the deals that I have gotten are so much better than what Black Friday is going to be. I am a bargain shopper and if there is a better deal I will find it.

I sold a whole bunch of jewelry that I don't wear at all to the pawn shop and wasn't expecting much, maybe $150 I got $435! So that bought Christmas to us. I just have a few stocking stuffers and a few things yet to get, but Christmas is taken care of. Kaylee is getting the Olivia 2-in-1 Real World Play set and family set, Blythe loves littlest pet shop the scooter one, Plum Puddings purple car from Strawberry shortcake, and the twin LaLaloopsy's and the other from Skyler. Skyler is getting Stinky the Garbage truck, an iron man trio set that has Iron Man, the bad guy and then the bad iron man in it along with War Machine, a Transformers double pack from ToysRUs, Handy Manny workshop and Handy Manny dump truck from Kaylee. They both are getting the DS Lites. They will get some coloring books an of course some things in their stockings but I have a feeling they are going to be super excited when they open up their presents.

We are also going into Louisiana the day after Christmas to see our family down there. We haven't been in for a Holiday down there since Kaylee was 7 months old. And David really wants to get back down there. He had wanted to go in for Christmas and I had some reservations about that. One I didn't want to have to pack Christmas gifts in the truck and try to squeeze two suitcases of luggage in the car (that was so not going to happen), two I like being at home in our house opening up presents, and three my grandpa is not doing that well and I just have a feeling that this maybe his last Christmas, I am hoping not but he isn't in that great of shape. I don't think I could of been able to live with myself if I had missed his last Christmas. Well it's late and I am off to bed. Have a good nite everyone! Talk to you soon.

Where did November come from?

Yep me keeping up with blogging is not going to be my thing I guess. I can honestly say life is busy and I would rather read then be on the computer. This year has went by soooooooo FAST! Thanksgiving is just a little over a week away. There are so many things to be thankful for.

Skyler got student of the month for October. We were very proud of him. Since last David's mom and dad came in for Halloween. We had a good visit with them. They enjoyed taking the kids trick or treating. Skyler and Kaylee got lots of candy and are still eatting on it.

I have gotten most of the Christmas shopping done just a few things left to get then it will be done. I have looked at some of the black friday ads and there are just a few things that I am going to get other than that not much. I can generally find good deals on things before then.

Wow I am so bad!

I can't believe here it is the middle of October and I haven't blogged at all. But I can honestly say life has been busy and when not busy I truly enjoy reading. So I am going to try to get better. Just bare with me.

Today we celebrated Zach turning ONE! He officially turned one on the 13th. He had such a fun time. I think he like the tissue paper in his bags better than the presents. He got cake EVERYWHERE! It was a lot of fun. He did enjoy his bath right after.

Tomorrow we go to Ashtyn's Birthday. The kids are excited.

The 14th marked my 31st Birthday. How is that possible? But I am fine with it, just really don't know where 31 years has come and gone.

I have started Christmas shopping and have found some pretty good deals. So far I have 3 of the 6 presents for Skyler. He doesn't want much. Just Iron Man toys, Transformers, and some games for his leapster.

Happy 4th of July!

I just can't believe that half the year is gone already! The kids and I went to my moms to eat and my grandparents were there and my sister and Zach stopped by for a bit. Kelley has made a decision about her life with Joe (zach's dad) and has decided to move out. Things have not been good with them for awhile and she finally had the courage to tell him. He told her "One day someone is going to piss in your corn flakes." Not really sure what that means and then he told her that one day "you are going to get what's coming to you". Since Kelley was pregnant he has just gotten kind of for lack of better word crazy. He needs help because he just does. He also informed her that Zach is going to stay with him half the time which is not right because Zach is just 8 months old and is with Kelley all the time. She does everything for him. She is the one who gets up in the middle of the night with him and goes on little to no sleep and goes to work. Joe is more worried about his animals that he has. Kelley had a horrible toothache which wound up being that she needed a root canal. He didn't offer to help her with Zach so she said that she was going to go stay at moms and he had no objection. He just doesn't help with him. He is a dad when he wants to be. So I am very upset with him about this. And we are going to find a lawyer to fight it. Someone who wants to be a parent when they want to be does not need to have their kid half time. I am just so upset because there is so much more to this story but I don't want to put too much out there.

The kids had a good time today. We didn't get to do smores with a real campfire because it was raining. And they didn't get to go swimming either.

On Wednesday I went to the premiere of Eclipse and I have to say I LOVED it! It was really good. I also went Friday with David and thought it was even better. It was pretty funny, which was different. My favorite line has to be from Jacob when he tells Edward "I am hotter than you." I about died laughing. But they did a good job with it staying close to the book. I just don't know how I am going to wait until November of next year to see the first part of Breaking Dawn.

I am working Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday and Saturday this week. So it is going to be a busy week for me. Also next Monday is David and my 7th Wedding anniversary. Seems like a lot longer than that though.

Have a good nite!

Remember Me

So I watched Remember Me tonight and I balled. This was such a good movie. One of the best I have seen in awhile. Robert Pattinson did an extremely good job in this. My sister and I were going to go see it in the theaters, but it went out before we could...so she and I are going to watch it on Sunday. I highly recommend watching this movie. Just be prepared with tissues.

Kelley and I are taking the kids swimming on Sunday, so that should be interesting. However, Kaylee may not be going. She has had a bad problem with keeping her hands off stuff in the bathroom the last week. The other night I was reading in the living room and she got out of bed and said she had to go pee. The next thing I know I hear water splashing and I go in there she is pouring water out of the toilet on to her head, so she got in trouble for that. Then the next day she put my lipstick all over her face and broke it. Yesterday she took a whole roll of toilet paper and put it in the toilet and today well she took the shampoo and put it in her and Skyler's hair. I don't know what to do to get her to listen to stay out of the bathroom and keep her hands off stuff. It's very frustrating.

Have a good night!

So today was Father's Day. Happy Father's Day to all the fathers out there. David had to work and then he called right after he got off work and was not to happy that I was making breakfast for dinner. Sorry but we don't have a ton of food in the house so you are just going to have to deal. Then I guess with it being Father's Day he decided that he was going to be a butt. I can't even watch any of my shows. Not a happy camper right now.

On a lighter note. My parents took my grandpa and grandma to see my grandpa's sister. She is not doing too good. She is dying, so they took them to see her one last time and say goodbye. I know this has to be hard for my grandpa. I talked to my dad tonight and he said it was hard to see her like that. She has always been a spunky woman, but she was just not that way today from what he said.

Only 10 more days to go till Eclipse and I am so ready. I found another clip and thought that I would share it and my favorite part is when Jacob asks "Hold up what damn army". Love it!

Have a good nite everyone!

New Clip

So I found this today and thought I would share. I am so excited about this movie I can hardly stand it and just think after today only 10 more days till Eclipse. Have a good nite.

TGIF!

Well I have to say that I have done a pretty good job with keeping up with blogging so far this week. I am going to try to blog at least once a week. I have to say that I am completely exhausted! I just can't get my body to go to sleep at 10 to be up by 5:30. Thank goodness for this week tomorrow is it at getting up at 5:30 in the morning.

So last night I caught up on this show:



I LOVE The Vampire Diaries. I will watch it through the summer and have to say already I can't wait till next season. I don't watch a ton of shows, but on Sunday's I was Drop Dead Diva and Army Wives. I have been hooked on Army Wives since it first began. Then Monday's are One Tree Hill and right now since it's off I am watching the Bachleorette. She let my pick go Jesse from Missouri. But I think it will be between Roberto and Kirk. On Tuesday's during the fall and spring I watch 90210. Nothing on Wednesday's. On Thursday's The Vampire Diaries, Grey's Anatomy and Private Practice. On Friday's it's Smallville and nothing on Saturday. I DVR everything so I may not watch it that day but I do watch it.

The kids are staying at my parents tonight and they are suppose to go on the slip-n-slide. So I had to make sure that I packed their swimsuits, which I was reminded over and over. I had t laugh the other night I asked Skyler how his hair grew so fast and he replied "I'm not sure...but I sure am handsome." Yep! Food spit out of my mouth and I about choked. I didn't not expect him to reply like that.

I hope you have a great Friday and enjoy your weekend.

Toy Story 3

I have been thinking about taking Skyler and Kaylee to see Toy Story 3. The only draw back is it is in 3D. I really don't want to pay the extra $3 per ticket which is close to $10 with three of us going. I hope they have it playing at the theaters without the 3D.

I am so exhausted. I am use to going to bed after 1 am anymore and when I went to work today I had to be there at 6:15 am. So I just couldn't sleep last night I tossed and turned and finally conked out at about 1:30. So right now I am going on fumes. It's ok, just not what we talked about. They are wanting me to be an opener. And I had told them that I didn't want that responsiblity just to work and go home. I was suppose to work 10:15 to 1:15 during the day or 4:00 to 8:00 at night, and right now it looks like it will be 6:15 to 1:15. So we will see what happens. Also the manager told me to work today and tomorrow 6:15 to 10:15 and then after David brought the kids to be dropped off at 10:15 the girl I was working with said you are scheduled till 1:15, one of the other managers were there and said that I probably didn't get told the schedule had changed. No I hadn't. So I left, I can't afford a babysitter and David had a test he had to take. So right now work is not starting off on the right foot.

My sister is doing better the swelling is going down. She finally got home around 6 last night. But her dentist can not work on her mouth until the swelling is more down. Her face doesn't look to great, but hopefully in a couple days she will feel better.

I saw a preview for Ecllipse and I am going to post it later today. It was really good. Man I am so excited about this movie. Only 13 more days to go.



Also saw a coupon for $8.00 for Remember Me. I will have to post the link. I am going to rent it at Red Box first to see if I like it and if I do I will use the coupon to get it. Not to bad. I think they are normally $15 when a DVD is new so with $8.00 off it should be $7.00 plus tax. Not a bad deal.

Here's the coupon link: http://www.remembermecoupon.com/


Had to add this last video of one of the new ones of Eclipse I think I like this one the best so far!

Thank you Cara!

SMG graphics is amazing they make custom blogs for you for free. You can click my rose to the side to be taken to their board. Cara made mine and I am completely blown away. She did an AMAZING job!

Well Monday was not the greatest day for me. Alot of things happened personally in my life and I am still adjusting to the outcome that I made from them. It maynot be easy but I am going to try to do what I feel is right.

My sister is in the ER today. She needs a root canal and has tried calling around all over the place for almost a week now. No one can get her in until late in the month or next month. I don't understand if it's an emergency why can't they cancel cleaning appointments and get someone in who needs to be seen right away. So the hospital is going to give her antibiotics to help get her swelling down. One of the dentist was going to try to work on her mouth, but her face is so swollen he sent her to the ER so they could help get down the swelling. Then the dentist is going to work on her root canal. She was still waiting in the ER the last time I texted her about an hour ago.

I read Fallen over the last two days and absolutely LOVED it. I can not wait for the sequel to it to come out in September. The book is by Lauren Kate. So now I am starting back at Twilight again, because all the books I want to read are on order at the library right now. However I think I am going to read Water for Elephants which is another movie that Robert Pattinson is filming with Reece Witherspoon. I know that it's about a young gentleman (Pattinson) who drops out of med school right before graduation having learned his father has passed away and he joins a circus to help with the animals. He was going to school to be a vet. Sounds kind of interesting.

I found another picture of eclipse that I like. Also added two other blinkies to my blog made by Christine at VIP signatures, she did a great job and she made me a siggy for Eclipse as well.


and here is the siggy that Christine made me:


Also I have really gotten into The Vampire Diaries. I read the books but didn't like them as well as I do the TV series. I only caught the last half of the year so I am catching up this summer on it.


Also on another note I am starting back to work at Subway. I am working just part time right now. And I think I like that better than full time. Have a great day everyone!

Wow! Already half the year gone!

Ok so yes I am BAD about keeping up with this...but I am going to try to get better. Chemo and Radiation hit me pretty hard. And yes I am finished with them for now. I did have my scan and it showed that I am still going to have to go through chemo. It got quite a bit of it just not all. So I will be starting that up again in a couple months. Thank you to those who have kept me in their prayers.

So during the course while I was on chemo I took up reading again. I use to read all the time in high school and when I first started college. I started the Twilight series and have fell in LOVE. I know understand what everyone was talking about. When I first saw Twilight I was not impressed to say the least. But after reading the books I understand the movie now. I am very excited about Eclipse coming out at the end of the month. Kelley and I have bought our tickets and Taylor is going with us. I couldn't get her to see it at midnight so we are going to the 1:30 show.

I have read even more books. I usually go through about 4-5 a week. I enjoyed The House of Night series. I just read the book Need and Captivate they remind me of some books that I have read...but I did enjoy them. I also read Hush, Hush which I really enjoyed. Also the books The Summer I Turned Pretty...this book had me laughing and just remembering when I was younger. It was a feel good book. There are three books in that series and the third one is due out this fall. Perfect Chemistry was a good book as well there is another in the series that I am waiting on the to get to read.

I also have a very special someone in my life. I have talked about him before. My sweet nephew. He just turned 8 months today and I couldn't imagine life without him. Zach is truly a happy baby. He got his two bottom teeth in a couple weeks ago. His smile could just brighten up a room. He also is in love with his big sister Taylor. He gets so excited to see her. Have a great night and I will be back tomorrow. Here is a picture of Zach. Such a sweetie!

Happy New Year 2010

Wow! Can not believe the new year is here. 2009 went by way too quick. I am going to attempt to do Project 365, but can not make any promises. I will start tomorrow by putting my first picture up.

On another note, chemo is wearing me out! My treatment was this past Monday and it drained me. I was not feeling like myself till last nite. I hate it to a "T". This is what I have written about it.

Chemo there is only one word to describe it: PAINFUL. It's painful to throw up over and over till your whole body hurts, it's painful to have nose bleeds/cough up blood till your nose is sore or your throat is so raw you can hardly stand to mutter two words. It's painful to have that IV put in when the nurses miss it a couple times and you bruise easlily and have bruises up and down your arms from it. It's painful to be sitting there and all of a sudden you know what going to happen 30-45 minutes after you start getting it. It's painful to know that for several days you can not play with your kids and only to see their disappointed faces. It's painful to see what it does to your family and your life. To know that your kids see and hear you throw up; and it scares them and they cry. It's painful to see the fear in their eyes when my nose bleeds. And most of all it's painful to have the feelings and to think you would much rather life to end then to have to do this over and over. These are the feelings I battle every day. I recieved my 2nd treatment and am so wiped out, I have NO energy for anything. All I want to do is just sit and cry. I am tired of this taking over my life. And that's the painful part it's MY LIFE. Life that no one should have to endure. A life that you sit and think what did I do wrong? Why do I have to go through this? I am fed up and am so sick of BEING SICK!

You know I really hate what this is doing to my kids. Every day Kaylee asks "Do you have to go to the hospital?" And she has that worried look on her face. She does not want me out of her sight. And then when I am sick they ask "why are you sick again mommy?" This just tears me up inside because I know that they are trying to understand but just can't. This is just tearing me apart. My whole reason for being here is for them. They are what make me get up every day. If I didn't have them, I might just stop fighting. No one should ever have to endure this! This is just horrible.

As I was sitting there today I though of the phrase God will never give you soemthing you can not handle. There is a reason why I am going through this. He has a bigger plan for me. But one thing is for sure I am going to fight and fight like crazy because I am bound and determined to see my kids grow up. Their smiles, hugs and love is what makes this worth the fight.

Happy Thanksgiving!

I hope each and everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving! We did. The in-laws and us went to my parents for Thanksgiving. My cousin and her family were there, my grandparents, my sister and her family and my parents were all there. There was TONS of food and we all had a great time! We all sat around after eating looking at the Black Friday ads. We picked out what we were after and had fun talking about it. David and his dad left to go watch a movie and then around 4pm his mom, the kids and I all left to come back home. We also got our tree up. It's not decorated, but it is up.

David and I decided that we were going to get up for some items. Since our printer/scanner has hit the dust we got the HP printer from Wal-Mart for $25. It came with both inks so it basically paid for itself. David also picked up both kiddos coats at Wal-Mart for $15 regularly $35, so both were less than one by itself. They needed them bad. Skyler was still wearing his one from last year and you could tell it was too small, and Kaylee has been wearing her light jacket, cause hers was way to small from last year. Then later on during the day I picked up the color wonder pads that Wal-Mart had for $5 each, one for Skyler and one for Kaylee. Then at Target I got the Memorex DVD player for $20, so the kids can watch their own movies/shows when we would like to watch something. I also got a toy for Skyler for mom at Target. My camera has been about ready to roll over and die for awhile so David got me the Nikon camera that they had on sale for $88. Which I very much appreciated, I just have to figure this one out. I also got a few odds and ends at Target and Wal-Mart. I already had the majority of the toys bought before I found out about my cancer, but this kind of put a halt to the additional stuff that I would of like to have gotten them. All in all it was a pretty good day.

The in-laws left once we got back. It was sad to see them go, however, it is nice to have my house back again. I am gearing up for next week. Kaylee is off to see the dr Monday about her head. She has seemed like she is just very agitated all the time since it happened, just not herself. Then Wednesday is chemo day. I am not really looking forward to it at all. I will just take it one day at a time though.

Again I hope everyone had a wonderful Holiday! And just think 27 more shopping days til Christmas!

Update

Besides being extrememly sore, things are going ok. Just a little bruised from the surgery. I have been getting on the internet, and it does escape from things, but then I have a sering pain and come back to reality. I know I have been pushing myself too hard, because David does not want to seem to pick up any slack at all. And it gets sooooo frustrating. I am not suppose to be picking up anything, but yet I am because he always finds an excuse about everything. I thought this time around would be different, but it's not. He had three days off Sunday through Tuesday and did not do any cleaning, his parents just got in today and he has known and the only room that he cleaned up was ours. This is just so frustrating. Once again after surgery I had to finish what was done. I am so sore from it all.

His parents are in until Friday (I think) and his dad, David and Kaylee all went to Wal-Mart to get groceries, some reason Subway did not deposit anyones checks and said they will be there Monday, So I literally had no money for groceries this weekend. Anyways they all went and David said Pepsi had a display set up with just a few 24 packs of pepsi in the front and then a ton of Diet Pepsi behind that. He grabbed a pack of Pepsi, and his dad was crossing it off the list when all of a sudden they heard Kaylee crying. Kaylee was in the cart in the front and she had 4-5 cases of pepsi piled on top of her. David said all of a sudden 10 managers/employees came running over. She has a HUGE goose egg on her head, and David said he held her for awhile and once he let her get down she didn't quite have her balance and she had wanted to go to sleep right after it happened. Wal-mart said that they would pay for the ER visit and everything. So we took her and they said to watch her for the next several days. Wal-Mart said that Pepsi was liable since they build the displays, however my questions is this, if it is in your store don't you have a liablity to your customers to make sure items in your store are safe? I think they are both liable. How hard is it to have an employee check items. I am just really frustrated and my heart just sank when David told me. I just hope that she is ok, because we sure can not take any more bad news right now.

Wow!

Man I just can not seem to keep up with the blog like I use to. Work and Facebook def get in my way of keeping it up. For those who don't know I have been diagnosed with Breast Cancer and will be having surgery on Thursday to remove it, the surgery was originally Wednesday but it got pushed back, and then the 3rd of Dec I will be starting chemo. I am very scared this time go around but I am planning on keeping a positive outlook. My last day of work is tonight. Not really sad, I like the people I work with just don't like the aspects of the jobs and the nite hours. The kids are very happy that I am not going to be working. When I told them that today was my last day working they were very happy. With the chemo I am going to have 6-8 cycles of treatment and it will be aggressive. I know I will lose my hair but my mom and sister are going to help me shave it before the chemo can take it. My biggest worry is the kids. I just don't want them to be afraid or sad. Also money is a big concern. Since I will not be working I am super stressed about how we will make bills. But I know and hope we will find a way.

My in laws are coming in for Thanksgiving. They are coming up this Sunday and will leave the following Sunday. This is the first time that they will stay and entire week. Normally they come up the day before Thanksgiving and leave that Sunday. I hope they will put up the tree with the kids and I am hoping to get my father in law to hang the lights, because I know David won't do it. We have chosen not to tell them so that they can enjoy their visit. We are going to tell them before they leave. The kids are excited for them to come in. We only get to see them twice a year.

But I hope to be back within a week to keep you updated about how the surgery went and how I am feeling.